..never wonder what i'm thinking..

2003-06-18T20:29:00.000-04:00

HMMM, TOO MUCH WORK!
Hi everyone! I haven't written in forever. I've been soooo busy. I've switched jobs - went from nannying to kicking it as a receptionist at the beauty salon. HA! I have to work the cash register and answer phones. Not toooo bad, but its a step up from watching elmo and "where's spot" all day long. I didn't even get a break in between the two jobs. Stopped working with the kids on a friday and early early monday morning, i was at the salon training. TOOO MUCH! I'm out of here in a little over a month. So thats good. Everyones finally starting to come back for vacation. I'm seeing lots and lots of Kinnick people. :) Its cool. The packers came and took most of our stuff so we're stuck with all this uncomfortable furniture for two months. CRAZINESS! Thats pretty much it! Later!
Something Keri sent me:

To realize the value of a sister
Ask someone who doesn't have one.

To realize the value of ten years:
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one year:
Ask a student who has failed a final exam..

To realize the value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

2003-05-27T08:37:00.000-04:00

way out-dated.. what is a girl to do..
hi everyone. sorry so late. its been happening a lot lately. actually, i never get on the computer. sooo i should work on that. not much happening.
my daily plans look like this...
first, wake up - head to work
then home for lunch and then back again
around 5:30, head home, call donald.
dinner - then hang out with donald
home and sleep.
BLAH! love aim

2003-05-07T20:54:00.000-04:00

long time no blog. its been a busy busy busy couple of weeks. lets see, first it was finals for a couple of my classes. i must say - i did a lot better this semester than first - 4 a's and a lovely b. well not really. but really - the two math classes - how simple can it be. my mom got to orlando on the 22nd. so we hung around there. she helped me pack all my stuff in the dorm and move out. then we shopped all over orlando looking for clothes for her (the variety in japan is sooo not good) and new apartment stuff for me. i got this great some bedding set. my new comforter is purple! its great! not that ugly bright purple but a dark - very nice looking :). my plans for my room in the apartment is purple and black. so all the new stuff is just that - either purple or black. got some chenille pillows and blankets - soooo soft! its great! then we headed up to chicago for another week. no computer there so i was about to die. my fingers were cramping up from a lack of not typing. ;P just chilled there too. it was quite boring. we'd head to a restaurant with all my grandparents.. and aunts and family. there was a huge age gap between me and all of them. i think the closest person to my age was my mom.. still some 20 something years older! and now, i'm back here in yokosuka. very excited about that. good flight - it was pretty empty. donald met me at psd so that was really sweet then i hung out at his house for a couple hours before heading back here to sleep.todays the 8th - another anniversary! 18 months. its incredibly hard to believe its been that long already. tomorrow, i start working as a nanny for a 5 month old and a 2 year old. should be exciting. :) lol. we'll see! by the end of the day, i may be wishing i didn't have this job! lol. more updates later!

2003-04-21T22:21:00.000-04:00

woohoo! new pictures! check out those face masks of me and abs! hehe! they are supposed to be anti-stress stuff but i think we ended up just having fun. i mean, that stuff is all over my clothes, the floor! holy men! haha. it was crazy fun. wrap up of todays events: this morning.. actually went to my last 2 classes - finite (some pre-algebra mess) and speech. all i have left now is my final in speech on wed and my final in finite on fri. craziness. my mom gets here tomorrow to help pack. hope she loves my desktop. i picture of my prudy car :) yeah right.. (keep dreamin aims).. then it was off to abs grandparents for a quick swim then dinner. relatives are awesome! no more marketplace!! for today anyways. then came back here to hang out. getting down to the last few days. :) i'm sooo excited to get home and see my oNnY!!! i miss you!!! anyways, hope ya'll enjoy the new photos! send me a message! aimeronnies03@hotmail.com!

2003-04-20T21:36:00.000-04:00

another uneventable day.. more like weekend. saw a movie on friday night called "phone booth" - pretty good. i'd recommend it. then saturday, we went to the mall where i should tell you, i did not buy one article of clothing. aren't you proud! jeez, i even had some 86 bucks burning a hole in my wallet from the books i sold back. but yes, i was good. then on the way back, we all stopped at target to pick up some of those face masks.. you know.. the cool neon blue and yellow ones. supposed to take away stress. lets see how it works later! haven't done much of anything on this easter sunday nevermind, let me say that a little differently.. i didn't do a thing today. i watched lifetime channel movie after another. i know, how sad is that. oh well. my mom gets here on tuesday, then all the fun begins, packing and moving stuff and packing and wait.. did i say lots of packing. yes yes, i believe i did. ups and downs with donald today. but hopefully it gets better. sometimes, i don't think he realizes how much i care about him. long distance isn't easy. i knew that coming here but we've made it so far.. it's gonna be ok. hi to everyone that i haven't been able to talk to lately. with school finishing up, i find myself wanting to throw this computer out the window. maybe i'll do that someday. this is the end of me for tonight. love all. :) aims

2003-04-18T19:48:00.000-04:00

story time.
i have a friend. we'll call her "bertha". she had a talk with her mom today and she made "bertha" mad. its times like this when "bertha" really hates school here and she gets sooo mad at her mom. she never understands anything "bertha" says. all she says is "do this, do that" and she never even once considers whether or not "bertha" am happy here. because lets face it, "berthas" not happy at all right now. she hates it. but its like, she won't let her leave and she soooo would be gone by now if she would of just once listened to bertha. ok. *aimee has tears.* [from an e-mail to onny: sometimes you get angry at your parents and wish you had some like mine but i don't wish that on you ever. how did i get the crap end of everything. both my brothers get everything they need. jay had a car when he went off to college. its not my frickin fault he messed up. josh is constantly in debt and asks for money that he forever says he will pay back.. hes on his third car now. katie is the baby of the family that gets everything. shoot, look at her, shes a junior and she drives wherever whenever she wants too. not only that but my mom sends her all the way over to me so she can go shopping for a week. on top of that, they are already talking about getting a house down here in florida so that if katie comes to school here, they won't have to pay so much for her housing and stuff. do you not see a problem with that. for this past year, i have been almost totally on my own in respect to paying for school and getting around. the minute katie says she MIGHT want to come here, they start discussing a house. am i missing something or am i getting the crap end of everything. i can't think of a thing that i can say i've gotten that me siblings don't have. but now, the minute i bring up a car.. she gets all mad, saying my GRANDMA never had a car and she had 10 kids. what kind of crap is that to support a reason for me not getting a car. gosh, i've always been the half way good kid too. i never get in trouble.. i get good grades and what do i get for that. seems like nothing to me. ok. i will soooo stop complaing now.
all i know for sure right now is that i love you now and i'll love you forever. thank you baby. just the thought of you getting on soon makes me smile. :) i love you. i'm sorry for just typing all that mess. i love you and i really miss you. i can't wait to get home to you.. i need an onal hug!! ]

2003-04-18T17:32:00.000-04:00

have a GREAT FRIDAY everyone! Just a few more days for all of us.. who gave up something for lent. Hang in there! 4 days till my mommy gets here! i don't know why i even bother will classes anymore cause i go and i can't stay focused for anything. today's big task.. take back my textbooks that i didn't use. unfortunately i only got some 86 dollars for 3 books but hey, thats good enough for me. i can get some new shoes now. :) since my mom is coming all the way to florida to see me and help me move and she won't even buy me a pair of shoes. psh. i don't think so. she just thinks shes going to get away with not spending on me. its funny. she must be dreamin'! 10 days till i move outta this place, 18 days till i'm back in japan. i think i say that everyday. seriously, it's getting to the point where i have got to get out of here. class today.. finite and speech. this one gal gave a speech about how horrible this one apartment complex is. scaring me about finally moving into an apartment next year.. already have the lease signed and everything. now if only they could find my darn paperwork :O been searching for a car lately. i'm really looking forward to this summer job.. if only i can get it. please please please. this one lady that my sister used to babysit for is looking for a nanny. hahah. if she doesn't find one by the time i get back. the job is soooo mine. and i could sure use the money. easy job.. easy money. what could be better!

2003-04-15T11:26:00.000-04:00

hi! bye!

just kidding. nothing much going on here. i'm a boring boring person. katie was here.. and left. did lots of shopping, spent lots of HER money. a good thing cause i'm done to about a -3 bucks in my account. 2 classes totally done with. a test tomorrow and a final on the 23rd and 25th. then i'm done! home on the 7th. what a great feeling. look me up.. chillin at the pool while all of ya'll are still in school! :) its great going to a florida school! i pick my next falls classes today at 5. exciting. my mom gets here a week from day to do the packing. YAY.

2003-04-02T18:57:00.000-05:00

hi all! sooooo another day is here and gone. yay! soooo i finally changed my msn name.. if you want it.. send me an e-mail. aimeecarey@hotmail.com.. what else. classes are boring.. i don't think i'll ever be done with classes. its terrible! just when i think i'm done with classes, i have to register and get prepared for another semester. i mean, they want us to pick classes for fall.. which starts the middle of august NEXT WEEK. you think i'll remember what i sign up for. NEGATIVE! sooo class was boring. i made it to finite LATE again. i live not even 2 minutes away and i stay can't manage to make it there on time. its ok! fashionly late is always good. anyways.. always looking for ways to improve my blog so if you have any ideas or suggestions.. LET ME KNOW!

2003-04-01T12:36:00.000-05:00

APRIL!!!!! 35 more days till i get home. talk about exciting! just have to stay focused enough to make it through 2 and a half weeks plus finals. i can do it. i can do it. donald is finally back safely at home so i can stop worrying about that. and things are back to usual... at least for another day or two. i wish life wasn't so busy and crazy all the time. but i'm loving it right now. i don't have enough time to think about how much i miss donald. with my grandparents and my sister and all that good fun stuff, i think i'm just in a bubble of excitement. i can't wait till the end through when i have my feet on japanese soil. lol. ahh. i hate classes!

2003-03-31T14:17:00.000-05:00

i can't believe hes gone. :( i also can't believe its been half a month since i wrote on this thing. sorry about that. sooo where do i start. i guess on the 14th.. when i went to pick donald up. lol. can you believe that i made it. wow. that was crazy. tooo many cars. that day also started spring break so me and donald spent the weekend here in town. donald slept most of the day on saturday. it was incredibly cute. i kept waking him up like every 10 minutes so he got pretty mad at me. haha. than monday morning, the maintenence guy came to check for leaks. and it was like 10 am. and me and donald were about to shower. sooo knowing that i have gotten in trouble once for having a male spend the night. i told donald to get in the shower. HELLO. did you read that. YES, my not-so-bright-sometimes self told donald to get in the shower. the guy was checking for leaks. where the heck do you think hes going to look. yes, at the shower. soooooo. surprisingly i think he only stuck his hand in and turned the water on and off. i'm not to sure if he saw donalds feet or not but i was freaked out. i thought for sure, he'd turn me in and i'd have to deal with them ra's again. soo that afternoon, we went to daytona beach for the week. actually, we hung out at my brothers place which is in ormond beach so it wasn't as crowded and crazy as daytona. we got back here on friday afternoon and chilled.. i had some fun fun work to do sooooo i did that.. then this past week flew by.. despite having a speech and 3 exams. and now, donald is gone. i hate it. i want him here sooooo much. it sucks. but only a month left and i'm home. yes. i can't wait. ok. enough whining for now. i promise to write again soon.. :P

2003-03-14T14:45:00.000-05:00

2 hour countdown! oh yeah! and no more classes! SPRING BREAK!! Finally! Less than a month of school left and i get to go home! Even though that doesn't sound fun at the moment (my mom has threatened to use me as her slave maid so we all prepare to move to Hawaii).. I know it will! I'm so excited about seeing everyone and doing the Japanese things we all used to do one last time. Mongo, and yakiniku, mores, and daiei.. the finger game and the bad smelling people on very packed trains to yokohama and tokyo. the gossip and the pool. the waves as we all pass one another on the roads, going to the exchange out of boredom, and most of all: 2 dollar movies! oh yes! ok, just one more hour that i have to spend wasting time. then i'm driving to the airport.. did i forget to say that i've never driven on the interstate/highway thing before. eck!

2003-03-13T20:06:00.000-05:00

i think i'm going to drive myself crazy!! i'm sitting here waiting for donald to get here. oh my gosh, i guess i should tell you guys that he just got on the bus from psd. haha. how retarded am i! soo it pretty much means a whole day before he get here. ahhh! i need something to keep me preoccupied for the next 22 hours! i'm about to borrow my roomies (she left the car for me to use over spring break... me.. car! BAD IDEA!) car and drive up to meet her at her grandparents. thing is... i haven't driven at night yet. ahaah. so this should be interesting.. and i don't quite know where i'm going. wish me luck! if i'm not back in a few hours.. well you know the routine! OMG, speaking of not coming back... me and abs were walking back to the room after BREAKFAST and guess what we see. a squirrel. yes, a deader than dead squirrel. the poor thing must of fallen out of the tree or something. it was terrible. blood coming from the things head.. laying on its back.. mouth and eyes open (do squirrels blink??).. haha. so thats my interesting story of the day. other than that, i have done absolutely nothing. went to class. thats always a good thing! i even did like 2 math problems. only 30 more to go. but ER comes on sooo i don't think doing that is going to happen. umm! Messages to people: Cassie! Happy Birthday (psst, i saw it on your away message!!) and Katie: LOTS OF LUCK on your first soccer game. Play that number 11 with some pride! haha. I love you girl! I can't wait to see you in some 3 weeks!
Ok, thats pretty much it! Later!

2003-03-12T12:14:00.000-05:00

more changes.. still not what i want it to be. haha. i get so frustrated!!! i hate it! hahaha. oh well! its wednesday which means DONALD GETS HERE IN 2 DAYS!!! - ON FRIDAY!! YES!!

2003-03-09T20:26:00.000-05:00

thanks guys. :)
after a half-way relaxing 2 days at the beach, i guess i'll be ok for the week. at least till donald gets here and i can start spilling all my problems. i have the worst tan lines ever, short lines and halter top lines combined with absolutely no color on my stomach. not a pretty picture. oh well. 5 days till spring break! YES! i wish i could go home but i'm getting the next best thing, donald's coming here! ok. i'm boring! i didn't realize how long that last blog was. JEEZ! sorry about that!

2003-03-07T23:08:00.000-05:00

for only the second time since i started my college career, i wished tonight for somewhere to go to. someway to get out of my room, get away from this campus, get away from my life. i laid on my bed just 5 minutes ago thinking i need to get away from here. but how, and to where? i can't just get up and go, its not that simple. this past year, i have been lucky enough to have the greatest roommates and suitemates. keri with our endless giggles "you did what?!?! with who?!?!", with her baby under the sink (by the way girlie, it doesn't make that clinkin noise anymore, did you take the hungry baby with you!!) and andrea living up her life to the fullest through all good things, skipping class (i'm her human alarm clock, i haven't been doing so good lately!), her dreams, and her singin machine. nicole - trying to be like me with the anniversary dates, absentee.. liz i think i know everything about you since the day you were born. she can talk for hours about anything and everything. but always around to help when theres a tough time despite how much shes going through in her own life. and finally abs its been a lot different this semester but i'm lovin it all. i know i'm confusing and not capable of being understood but its almost over. but sometimes.. i just wish to be alone. to think.. to be me. and soo as i was sitting on my bed, trying to decide how i was gonna get all this built up frustration out.. i thought.. BLOG it. soo all you unfortunate souls who sit there and read this mess.. click the "x" in the top right corner now.. before its to late. i dunno when it started, i just know it wasn't today. gosh, my roommates probably think i'm the moodiest, weirdest person on the face of the earth. one minute i was happy (how to lose a guy in 10 days is THE greatest movie), the next minute i'm frustrated and quiet.. just something i've noticed. i get super quiet and don't talk when i'm angry, upset, frustrated.. whatever feeling besides happy. and finally i'm laying on my bed looking up at the ceiling with tears coming down my face. WHY? i can't control this mess anymore. the first time this happened was back in august. i woke up at my brothers house, excited cause it was finally the day to come to school. i was starting something new and hopefully fun. as we drove the 2 hours to school.. i got nervous.. quiet.. just listening to the music and staring out the window. i got here and i was frustrated.. i had so much to get done, and i didn't have any time. finally, i broke out crying when it came for my brother to leave. i mean jeez, how can you go from excited to crying an ocean in less then 6 hours?? but that was months ago, since then, i've been through it all. the roughest times ever. just trying to make my relationship work, trying to be there for my love even though i was 6000 miles away. its terrible. i don't wish it on anyone but it shows you just how strong your relationship is, just how strong your love is for that other person and i wouldn't trade it for anything in this world. but today.. what the heck happened today. the movie i saw was great. happy, funny! one i'd recommend to anyone. it was the dumbest thing, my roommates water that i was holding spilled in my purse getting all over my leather wallet and checkbook. we've cleaned it up the best we could. its just a waiting game.. hoping everything dries and looks as new as when i got up just a few weeks ago. why'd i get mad? i guess some of it was because i miss donald so much. its like a hole that someone dug and threw me in. hes getting here in a couple hours less than a week and i'm just excited about that. but what about now. today? right this minute? i guess school isn't going as good as i'd like. the classes are better this semester but i can't apply myself and it drives me crazy. i guess its the friendship that i ended the beginning of this week. it wasn't worth it anymore. after 4 years, i was tired of lies and broken promises.. thats not what friends are for. its all of this combined with much more. when my stuff got all wet, i was checking it all about an hour later and i found a photo keychain on my key ring soaked.. on one side was a picture taken right before we all went our separate ways to college.. of me, jess, and lisa and it said "friends 4 lyfe" - that lisa never could spell!!! and on the other was a pic one taking back at the beginning of senior year with a pic of me, kat, and faye. faye wrote the theme of the week "stupid guys" on it. its amazing how many memoried come flying back over just a small picture. but i miss that, i miss my friends, i miss my family. i guess all i can say is i want to go home =(

2003-02-27T22:12:00.000-05:00

Thanks everyone for writing in the message board! I got excited! I didn't realize people read about my boring life. oh my, i really write some dumb boring stuff on here! hahah. so i'll try to be a bit more interesting =P FAYE! hey! aren't you falling asleep with all this. haha. how is everything! aww. i miss japan and all the people! Christine! Hey! I soooo remember you! Its good to hear from you! How is everything!! Donald!! I love you!! you are soooo cute! How come you have to poo or fart everytime you leave me a message! LOL. I can't wait to see you! 14 days!
--Today's Breakdown--
This morning, i was up early for my frickin geography class. that class is sooo incredibly boring. you sooo don't understand. how much stuff do you really want to know about the winds and water masses on the earth. then lets see. i do this volunteer thing on campus where i go and talk english with international students. its sooo interesting. todays topic was transportation.. it was so cute. this one old guy from turkey who said he'd be my "cheap taxi driver" cause i was talking about how taxi's suck cause they are sooo expensive. he was just kidding but i thought it was funny. i swear! this people sooo come to "conversation hour" so they can find out where all the cool bars are. i wouldn't even know! i don't have a vehicle! lets seee, then my roommates and i did the ol' shopping at old navy day. i *heart* that store! then target and finally wal-mart before heading back to the dorms! yay! fun day! dinner was even pretty ok. how can that be?! caf food is soooo gross!
ok! more later! again, thanks again for signing the message board! keep them coming! love you all! but i love donald the most!

2003-02-26T18:54:00.000-05:00

..thanks KAT.. i ahh borrowed the link to the tag board and added it on to mine.. I know i'm not original but copying other people is so much funner! thanks girl!

2003-02-26T18:20:00.000-05:00

i wanna go hoooome. =( sooo what do you think of my new pictures?!?! i've been thinking.. if something happened and me couldn't be together.. they'd be my next choice. i know both would be fighting over me.. but ryan's used to it.. being on the bachelorette and all.. and josh.. well he was in pearl harbor awhile back (such a sad movie) so he knows enough about that department. =D anyways, that was just a thought. though i must add in here, i'm happily taken by my donald.. so josh and ryan.. just cry it all out now and get over it! a c t u a l l y i was thinking that the two guys kind of looked alike. what do ya think?!
sooo i got a new favorite thing to do in my spare time.. burn candles.. my roommate must hate me by now *so many different smells going on at one time*
yesterday, the fire marshall guy came so i thought i was gonna get it loads of trouble but nah.. he seems to overlook it. o m g, someone shoot me now =) abs is studying outloud.. and its not even interesting - wwII and the cold war?! did you know that a hot war is where you use weapons... i did not know that. her sn is pretty cool - just a thought: some days you're the dog, some days you're the hydrant. muahahha. think about that! which are you!!! more later! aimee
---> 15 days!!!! <---

2003-02-23T16:38:00.000-05:00

mmm. i'm tired of school and all the drama. sooo ready to go home in april. i'm craving some yakiniku and mongo.. its just not the same when its in the states. sooo its been a pretty busy week. good thing its going by pretty quickly. i went over to daytona friday afternoon till saturday afternoon.. pretty cool. the rain held off saturday. gave me way to much time to get a nice ReD sunburn. mmm, it doesn't feel that good now that i think about it. then i came back to campus saturday and a couple hours later, a super old friend of mine that i grew up with during middle school and beginning of the high school years came and spent the night. talk about someone who knows about all some *uh hmm*. Crazy thing is... the girl has never had *uh hmm*. thinks and talks about it 24/7.. example.. we see a police car driving by.. what comes out of her mouth? the dream about being handcuffed to a bed and *uh hm* - you know the rest. really good to see her. ok, enough for now. i had to get to the books. crunch week for professors... i have exams coming our my *ding* [<--- hahahaha] and ears. later people. behave!

2003-02-15T12:43:00.000-05:00

I got these questions sayings/questions in an e-mail from my old roommate. Some are really good, others, well not so good but read them and think about 'em. I love you Donald, more and more each day. I know I've hurt you a lot but we're strong and we can get through anything together. I can't wait to see you in March and I can't wait to experience all the good times we will have come August. You mean everything to me!! Thanks for the forward Keri Berry. Now never send me another forward again!! just kidding!

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

2003-02-11T11:40:00.000-05:00

yes! the 11th already! lots of stuff going on lately. forever taking exams or writing essays. but i thought i'd wish everyone a happy valentines day since my blogs are few and far between. past 10 days have been flying by.. donald and i had our 15 month anniversary on saturday. YAY. if i know one thing for sure, its that these past 15 months have been the best and i wouldn't change it for anything.
the one thing i would change is how often la*cough*uren ni*cough*han im's me. right kat?! lol. -- new best friends!
thanks to katie for the awesome cd. can't wait till you come, i'll feed you all the good stuff - raw cookie dough, moldy bagels, and tons and tons of RAMEN!!! 13 cents baby!!

2003-02-01T18:26:00.000-05:00

yay. happy february! i'm so excited. (hint to self.. just get through feb, march, and most of april and boom - you're back in japan). never before was i so excited about the month of february. sooo. its been a while. not much going on around here. i'm finally over my sickness i think.. a couple coughs here and there but its all good. i tell you man, that graduation speech i had to give.. really had some negative affects on the way i view my speech class. i absolutely hate speech. i give my first speech on the 26th i believe and i totally froze up there in front of the class. i'm a bit worried as to how my grade will turn out.. but if i can just pass and get out of there, then i'll be good. ahhh. i got a 96 on my math exam that i talked about in the last blog. i laugh at people who decide to skip the easy math classes and go straight for the hard ones. and other than that.. not much going on. i saw "the recruit" at the movies last night. i tell you.. you really have to pay attention to understand that movie. hahaha. so i paid 6.50 just to be totally confused. it was pretty cool though, big fight broke out at the theater. i think it was over some chick that was like 10 feet high blocking the view of the people behind her.. so her boyfriend jumped up and started punching some other guy and all we could here was "beep beep this.. you're a beeping beep.. beep you" totally made the movie worthwhile to see. =) - aims -

2003-01-24T17:15:00.000-05:00

i am soooo tired. and what is up with this freezing cold weather. i'm getting sick from it so it really needs to go back up north where it came from =) hehe, sorry all you northerners! anyways, big math exam today, i almost failed cause i forgot my calculator and 2 plus 2 is such a hard calculation. man oh man. oh well. not much going on besides the cold and the math exam. all of us are just trying to stay warm. about to run over to the marketplace to get some dinner.. wait its only 5:15.. lol. i suppose i have to wait a little longer. more later on. me!

2003-01-23T20:43:00.000-05:00

-- Everything - Stereo Fuse --

Cause I would give everything
that I own I'd give you my love and this heart made of stone
the sun, the moon, the Earth, the sky
the motorcycle that I like to ride
I would do anything and I would give everything
to be your everything

But if ever you should stray
just sing along and I will play
or look into your hands
I'm slipping through them like a tiny grain of sand

I remember you
do you remember me too
seems like such a long long time
since I held you near and called you mine

Cause I would give everything that I own
I'd give you my heart and this skin and these bones
the sun the moon the Earth the sky
a brand new car that you and I could drive
I would do anything and I would give everything
to be your everything.

2003-01-23T17:40:00.000-05:00

since i'm the most awesomest person ever, i thought i'd write a couple lines.. cause i know everyone who reads this has soooo missed me since yesterday. class this morning, then ate breakfast, came back to the room, chatted with donald, and finally it was nap time. funny thing is... donald and i were laughing at the fact that his mom took a nap the other day at 9:30 am.. but i guess you would have to take into consideration that shes up super early. i on the other hand.. get up at 8 to go to class.. and am ready for a nap by 11:30. lol. haha. college life.. what can i say?! haha.
some crazy weather stuff going on here, it went from being in the 70's yesterday to getting super cold.. by early tomorrow morning, its supposed to feel like the 20's. i know there was a reason why i moved to florida.. and this cold weather junk was not part of it. i absolutely hate cold weather. there is no way that i could make it in places like new york, which my roommate tells me is in like the teens and twenties.
oh well. i got my first test of the semester tomorrow. fun fun. <> i can't wait. i like how i was writing the last blog and i just left everyone hanging.. hehe. my good. =) really, i just wanted to point out that everyone in my building is a psycho. did i mention that one room, a few doors down is full of girls who swing the other way. they're proud of it too, just walk by their room -- rainbow flags (with the purple) taped in the window.
but what do you expect.. this is the academic enhancement floor - designed to keep people on the right track their first year of college.. what were my parents thinking?!?!
-hugs-

2003-01-22T19:45:00.000-05:00

did i ever tell you guys how important my donald is to me. these past weeks have been crazy. with all the people i've been talking too and the stories i hear. it makes me so much happier each time i hear a not-so-pleasant story cause i know i have the willpower to make this work. and with all the mess around campus.. specifically... in the dorm building. omg. did i tell you about my weird dorm building. my neighbors are psycho. one is always on the phone yelling at someone about a cousin thats pregnant that needs to stop getting in fights. then the guy downstairs.. well i'll stop there. i shouldn't be mean! ahahahah.
more later!

2003-01-21T12:00:00.000-05:00

like kat had said.. once you get started messing around with the html.. you don't stop. haha. i'm constantly looking for ways to improve. another chat with an old friend on the phone till late. i don't understand people sometimes. if a guy isn't treating you right, why do you stay with them. i totally understand the "i love you" part but.. no names.. there are sooooo many guys out there that can treat you sooo much better and thats what you deserve. thats what everyone deserves. yes, its going to be painful and its going to hurt but if you let some guy get away with the same mess over and over, he's not going to change and in the long run, you'll be wishing you would of ended it forever ago when it happened the first time. but i know you can do it, i know everyone can come back from something like that. its a part of life. you learn a lot and in the end, its going to make you such a better, stronger person than you ever were before.

if you ever need some help, you know i'm here. just don't fall for the same thing again. move on, be strong!

2003-01-20T20:08:00.000-05:00

OMG, check out the webpage - I've been working on it for like 2 hours.. Pretty good for never taking a computer class where you're supposed to learn about this stuff! LOL. Well I should really be doing homework! LATERS!

2003-01-18T23:12:00.000-05:00

HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU INSERT PICTURES ON THIS THING?!?!

2003-01-18T23:06:00.000-05:00

jeeeez, i'm getting worse and worse about writing on this thing. sooo lots going on around here. but overall, these first 2 weeks of school have been pretty relaxing. lets seee. in the last mail, i talked about late knights, that was interesting. read about it.. down there... but since then, i've had some pretty awkward days. i learned the next day that a friend of mine who lives downstairs.. has this, might i say.. crush on me. and damm. now that i think about it, its like why didn't i think of that. sooo my suitemate told me.. blah. but its ok. cause he doesn't know i know and i don't plan on him knowing that i know. lol. haha. hes a cool friend, i used to think hes a "safe" friend cause he had a long distance girl and me.. my donald so we'd chat about relationships.. but freaker, i guess christmas changed that. oh well. cause he doesn't know i know. hahaha. sooo, he hangs out a lot up here now. which is cool. hes a good friend but not the kind of guy i'd go for.. does some stuff i don't think is good.. you know that kind? anyways. again, he doesn't know i know. hahaha. and to make things worse, my conversation with jessica and her problems.. have made me confused. how can i make it with my relationship when everyone elses is falling apart? then on top of that, me and donald have had a couple arguements.. i wanna have fun, see some movies but everytime i come back, he's been waiting and is upset so i was up till about 2:45 am.. talking about how i hate staying here all the time.. blah blah.
soooo i'm getting pretty excited. come march, the semester will turn awesome. donald is coming to chicago, then down to florida with me for a little bit. then katie gets here the end of march and is staying 2 weeks! yAY. and a week after that, my mom and i think my grandparents are coming down. not to mention that my one brother just moved to daytona, an hour away from me. and my roommate is getting a car! YES! ok, enough for now!

2003-01-12T01:38:00.000-05:00

hey mans and womans! well its 1:30 in the morning over here in orlando. my ghetto school put on this event called "last knights" [my school mascot is a knight - g o f i g u r e] and some road rulers were there, doing a show and taking pictures. but oh my gosh, theo [look it up] was soo drunk. all he talked about was his ... well his largely equiped lower half. timmy and dan were there too. but it was so messed up that we had to leave. i took a couple pictures but didn't wanna get close enough to them. they were horrible. ok well thats all. i'm waiting for donald to sign on. seems like hes not so happy about me being out so late. blah. laters.

2003-01-09T11:36:00.000-05:00

heeeeey. i've almost made it through the first week of classes. exciting huh. just one more day - 3 more short classes. its the 9th already. yesterday donald and i celebrated (from both sides of the world) our 14 month anniversary - yes, can you believe it - a year and two months. that was pretty exciting. its nice to know that we can make it through this crap like distance.. blah, so many people i know aren't doing so well but its nice having the feeling that i know i can trust him.. anyways, i moved up this semester from 4 classes to 5 and it still seems like it is going to be a lot easier than the previous semester. other than that, i've just been hanging out, getting back into the mode of classes and getting used to having to be on the computer if i want to talk to people. i sooo didn't miss my computer in the month i was home. i've been talking to my mom about not coming back to florida next semester for classes. she's not liking the idea to much.
oh yeah!! this weekend, the school does this one event called late knights. its like where you can go and hang out and get all these free stuff. but this one is gonna be awesome cause a couple of the guys from road rules (yeah, the show on mtv) are coming to the school so i thought that was pretty cool. i remember talking to jess way back at the beginning of fall semester and she had said that a couple of the guys were at her school so i was thinking.. man, why don't they come here. and guess what... haha.
yes yes yes, thats all. i gotta pick up a box from old navy. yay. laters.

2003-01-05T10:11:00.000-05:00

how can the 5 months that i was in florida feel like 5 years.. but then the one month I'm in Japan.. feel like a day. my flight was the worst. my narita flight sat on the runaway for an hour and a half.. while the captain dude kept coming on the microphone saying the fuel tests failed.. its like.. "thanks man, for making u s all feel really safe".. thats just some information that they shouldn't tell people. because the flight was soo late, i missed my connecting flight in atlanta and had to wait till the next available one which wasn't till 7 pm. like over 3 hours after the flight i was supposed to be on. sooo to sum things up, i didn't get here till like almost 10 pm. then i had to sit there and listen to the ra b**** tell me about how it wasn't time to get room keys anymore.. cause that ended at like 8 pm. but the b**** gave me my key so it doesn't matter.
mann, it was super hard to sleep last night. i slept at like 2 am.. then it felt like i was waking up every 10 minutes. i got up at 8 am.. sooo not like me. haha. but i think, overall, i slept pretty good on the plane from narita to atlanta. i think i missed like 2 meals.. not that i would eat them anyways. those meals are like the worst ever invented. one of the guys in my dorm building that i was talking with last night.. he was saying that his dad used to work with making the food for planes.. i felt so bad, i hope his dad doesn't cook that crap at home.. lol.
ok, well i tried to keep this blog somewhat cheerful.. but we all know.. that the sad depressing miss is bound to happen.. so might as well get it started... i super don't want to be here. i would seriously jump right back on a plane and go back to japan if i had the opportunity. hint hint.. anyways, i super miss my donald.. and everyone else. i regret not having the time to get with everyone and hang out. i regret all the dumb little fights with donald. i already the mornings.. when me and donald couldn't decide what to do.. and i miss the nights when we'd lay in bed over at donald's house and watch japanese shows.. donald having to translate of course. but not to worry, whenever he'd get tired of translating and explaining what is going on.. we'd do other stuff. no details needed right..
mann, when i got back here yesterday, i called donald's house.. but he wasn't there.. so i called my parents. another reason why i sooo don't want to be there.. i'd rather just walk into the kitchen or living room.. and talk to them. same with my sister.. all those chats.. we had at night... like that one day that we stayed up super late.. i don't remember where you had to go the next day.. i just remember you didn't get much sleep. anyways, enough for now.. more later. i promise!
...besides, now that i'm back in the dorm.. i'll have sooo much time to do all this.. =) laters!

2003-01-02T09:48:00.000-05:00

my sisters new blog doesn't work so i'm trying mine. she says WORK STUPID STUPID THING. the end.

2002-12-23T19:42:00.000-05:00

oh my. its been a while. :S well merry christmas eve! jeez, these days are going by fast. i've not really been doing much... hanging out with donald till we both get sick of eachother.. and must seperate. just kidding. we've been going offbase a lot. hanging out at mores and daiei. its sad, when i was thinking about coming back home, it was like.. wow - there's sooo much i wanna do over christmas break and yet.. now that i'm here, its like a big hassle.. deciding what to do.. cause we can't think of anything. its been starting a couple arguments between donald and myself. that boy is getting brave. he likes to argue back now. 6 months ago, he wouldn't.. so the arguments are harsher and meaner.. anyways.
yesterday and the day before.. looking for my parents christmas gifts. i know i know. last minute! :O but we did it. some pretty neat gifts too. sooo thats all done. hmm what else.
oh yeah, saturday.. mongo! shocking news. :O lisa... kat... jeez, the news is never ending. hehe. alright. i'm gonna get going~

2002-12-19T08:47:00.000-05:00

oh gosh, i'm getting worse and worse about remembering to blog. oopsies. just been sooo busy. sad part is that i don't really know what i've been busy doing.. =/ i ate dinner for the first time with donald's family. it was just spaghetti but still... next week is christmas already. i really want (and need) for these weeks to slow down. like seriously.. i don't wanna go back to school so sooon. i had a talk with donald about colleges. thats always a scary conversation. =S came to no conclusions yet.. so i guess another conversation will be coming soon. hmmm. not much else to say..

2002-12-16T21:24:00.000-05:00

its tuesday already... i'm almost been here a week. boring day so far today, its 11:15 am. my mom has me cleaning my room.. or my old room :S. it seems like my mom and sister moved in my room the minute i left for college. scary thought. makes me feel like i'm missed... but anyways, my family is moving to hawaii in.. june? july? something like that.. and my mom is selling my furniture that i've had since i was a little kid *tear*.. so i have to go through it and throw away what i don't want.. blah. boring! but other than that, its been a pretty easy going, relaxing morning.
yesterday the schools had a bomb threat. WHY DO THEY WAIT TILL AFTER I GRADUATE TO HAVE IT. hahaha. they were outside from like 9:30 am till 12:15.. then they have to have lunch.. so they didn't go back to class till like 1.. i wonder if there is such a thing as bomb threats to colleges.. its not like i am forced to go to class anyways.. but you ever hear about that in the news.. oh well, i think its a pretty stupid way to have some fun. hello... we are talking about the military base schools in japan! craziness.
i took the movie "here on earth" over to donald's house yesterday. haha. he didn't appreciate the movie as much as me.. but hey.. i had to watch wwe wrestling the night before! haha. thinking the movie to bring will be "save the last dance" or "a walk to remember"... don't you think he'll enjoy that! hehehe. mean aren't i?!

2002-12-16T06:19:00.000-05:00

my dad is scary. hahhaha. ok. how is everyone! my father is like hoooked on drugs (hahah) cause he's standing behind me doing wwe moves. haha. its been a busy couple of days. one night, donald took me to the spaghetti place, another night -- yakiniku! it was the best! soooo much better than the marketplace. :) then today, we went to shibuya. very much fun. went in ____ . very awesome. kat gets back today. girl, i was thinking about you when i went into ____ today. -- you'll have to wait and see! :D
ok, i just ordered my textbooks for next semester. BLAH! hehe. alright, i'm heading over to donald's now. talk to you later!

2002-12-13T01:37:00.000-05:00

hi all again. haha. i'm at donald's house (in his room, on his bed - OH MAN!!! - what am i doing on here!!!!) haha. actually i just got him from work. and hes in the shower. yes i realize that i should... ahh, probably be in there with him... but heyyyy. i don't do that bad stuff. and you all know it!! :D right kat!!! hahahaha. everything that i say lately.. theres been like a "right kat" affter it. haha. girl.. you relate tooo much to me now! :D but i'm glad! keep up the good work, haha. we'll try secrets of the trade and advise for improvements once you get home!! lol!! hmmm so ..., nothing new and interesting here. i just blogged a little bit ago. haha. i promise to keep up with this thing! haha, theres gonna be lots of new (hopefully not boring information) hehe soooo i so huh! hha. soo i walked (YES WALKED - shocker i know!) to taco bell.. just cause he drives now so he had his car there arleady.. why go see him if we both have to drive back home alone. sooo yeah, like i said now i'm at his house.. waiting for him to get down with the shower.
alright, hes dressed and back! love always aimee! **winkwink** the next few hours are censored!!

2002-12-12T23:47:00.000-05:00

hellloooo ..from nippon.. hehe. soo much to talk about, where do i start? guess i'll back track and start on tuesday. um, actually not much to say about tuesday, it was the longest day ever invented. i was up at 4 am.. to get ready to go to the airport since my flight was at 7.. then i got to atlanta and my flight from there was at 10 am. i arrived here :) close to 3 pm on wednesday (but then add in the train ride - blah - and it was 6:30.. before i got to my house). what i did between that 14 hour flight.. i don't remember. it was quite boring though! the first time sailor/marine guy that was sitting closest to me.. was doing some chewing tobacco everytime i looked in his direction. i was like - "JEEEEZ, dude! thats not even good stuff" *smack* haha.
i saw donald pretty soon after i got off my flight. that was awesome. its like you wait and wait to see someone and when you finally do.. you feel at peace (..for about 3 seconds.. cause then you start waiting for something else - i.e. christmas and new years, friends to get here :D -- jeez, why'd you guys pick schools that you couldn't get out early like me :P)
awwww. i saw lisa valerie yesterday! that was fun. we ate lunch at taco bell (yes, i was waiting for donald to get break -- but he didn't) shes going to california in january - i'm so happy for her, its been forever since she's seen her guy and i couldn't wish that for anyone.. cause i know from experience - thats its the worst! (right KAT!!) soo we talked. then afterwards, i walked about the exchange with my mom.. then through the commissary. OH MY GOSH KAT! Our picture for getting the scholarship WAS STILL THERE on the wall when you walk in! ewwww! haha. then i had to wait till 3 to meet donald so i just walked around and guess what - i saw lisa again. haha. we are sooo boring! haha. sooo the rest of the day is history. can't go there!! haha. wink wink! :P
time to wrap my gifts for my little spoiled sister. Aim

2002-12-09T18:12:00.000-05:00

Guesss whaaat everyone! I leave in 11 hours!! ...wow, crazy thought... I don't really have much to say right now.. Haha, I just called my oldest brother to wish him a happy birthday and he was asleep (its like 6 pm here) -- so i feel bad. gosh, see what i get for doing a good thing.. haha, absolutely nothing! hahah. and i'm all done with classes! thats exciting. i get a whole month off. yayay. somedays, i felt like today would never come.. but its finally here.. and i'm super excited and anxious about getting home and seeing everyone. should be quite interesting. =D
Watched a pretty scary shark movie with my suitemate a couple hours ago. Jeeez. Its called "Deep Blue Sea" - i recommend it if you haven't seen it. but jeez, dumb sharks.. just think they are all big and bad.. eating people and shizzz. kinda act like some of the people i know....
oh yeah, what did you think of the part of the song by O-town that i posted. especially the chorus lines.. seemed to relate closely to my life at the time. in between thoughts, in between dreams, in between goals -- pretty much.. i'm in between. haha. and the place without love.. don't worry =P .. i just mean that i'm stuck here in florida.. without friends and family.. but like it said... i'm just gonna have to face it.. yuck. somedays - i'd rather run away then deal with it.. dot dot dot.
haha. wow. i just now fixed my space bar on the keyboard.. man i'm goood. haha. it makes a funny noise though.. hehe. oh well. =)
more later!

2002-12-08T13:45:00.000-05:00

** From "These are the Days" by O-Town **

You and I
Are out looking for the same thing
And these walls of wondering
Waiting for someone to share this feeling

And if she knocks on my door
i'll give her the key
Just one look in her eyes and i know i'll be
Everything that she sees in me
More than i ever thought i could be but

These are the days
When all that i can do is dream
But i don't wanna spend forever
living in the in between
I'm stuck here in a place without love
And i just can't let it stay this way
But for now i'm gonna have to face it
These are the days

These are the days between your hopes and fears
These are the moments that are still locked here
There still inside even if she will not hear
Like it or not this is what i got
Ohhh God

2002-12-08T13:40:00.000-05:00

Heeeello! Its been a while. Oopsies. Hehee. The sad part is.. I really haven't been doing anything that would keep me busy and preoccupied so i can't blame not blogging on anything. =) Oh well. Just today and tomorrow left till I leave for home. I'm pretty darn excited. Through, I should really be thinking about this biology final I have tomorrow instead of all these things I want to do when I get home. Ouch, I just hit my knee. Anyways, my bio exam is like 20 chapters long. Its crazy, how do professors expect us to remember that much stuff. Especially -- BiOLoGy!! So I'll be really glad when that is over. I've been waiting since wednesday for this stupid final.. Imagine that, if it wasn't for this one hour exam - I could of been home thursday! Grrr! But its been a pretty interesting couple of days or I guess sticking around here hasn't been that bad.. Thursday night, I had this pretty long conversation with Kat about everything you could imagine. I really can't believe I let a year go by without fixing everything that happened between us middle of senior year. Gosh, i remember it being so weird and awkward (strange looking word) around each other senior year - big difference from the crazy fun stuff we were doing junior year (**level devils** - remember that pictureee lol). Anyways I missed so much senior year but am soooo glad everything is pretty good now. =D
Friday.. another crazy night. Some of my suitemates friends came over, and they all played some cards out in the common room. did i forget to mention that they were in their underwear!! yes, they were.. pretty drunk.. and came by right after running around campus in their idea of a sumo outfit... LOL. One of the guys stomped on a balloon, scared the hell of out us, and our neighbors.. who were just about on the phone with the housing office calling in a noise compliant. COME ON - Just because its finals week doesn't mean we have to be quiet!! haha. just kidding (actually there is a campus wide noise policy in effect because of finals - oops =O) Saturday night, yesterday.. umm, what did I do. I honestly don't remember. Its crazy how I can remember thursday and friday but not yesterday. OH YES, forgot to mention - FRIDAY i went out and got my little sisters christmas present. (pat on the back - its only the beginning of december!!) I'm still looking for something to get my parents.. Katie was pretty funny.. trying to come up for something to get my dad.. concluded on the idea to buy a 12 pack of beer and wrap each can individually. LoL. Now.. just my mom... Ideas anyone?!
Today.. Been busy I suppose. Got up about 8:30 am, crazy times so I could get online and talk to Donald. Talked to him till about 10 am. Then I got dressed and went down to the marketplace to get something to eat. The food.. I swear is getting worse and worse and worse. Came back to my room and started studying for my bio exam tomorrow (I'm on a break right now).. Keri, my roommate's dad came up today and they packed up all her stuff. =( the room is sooo empty, her side of the room anyways. but i guess I can't say that i never had a single room since i get tonight and tomorrow night by myself. I pretty much have the entire dorm to myself.. damm final on the last day of exams.. I'll miss herrr! My new roommate has all her stuff out in the common room. I've known her since like middle school from back in pensacola. I didn't know she was coming to UCF till like after we got room assignments.. but lucky enough, she has this deep hatred for her roommate so shes switching rooms. =) YaY. Soo thats exciting, she's been basically an extra roommate though, either shes over here or I'm there... =)
alright, this is long. i'll blog around later. mAyBe!! =P

2002-12-06T00:00:00.000-05:00

Thursday night here.. Only ___ more days (need fingers - thursday night, friday night, saturday night, sunday night, monday night) only 5 more nights here in the dorm. YAY. I'm soo e n v i o u s of my roommates. Most of them are leaving tomorrow whereas (..re-reading first few sentences..) I have 5 more nights here. not cool.
i glanced at kat's blog , very good saying that she copied and pasted about the calories that guys can burn taking off a girls bra. LoL. if you're wondering, mail me.. more details then. but thumbs up to kat for finding that.. remember back in stats class - we should of done a project on how correct that is :)
so my day today was pretty l a m e. what did i do? hmm. NOTHING!! I did pay my housing charge for next semester and picked up a box from my mommy. That was fun - I got a new blanket and some candles! But other than that.. I really haven't done much. My new roomie for next semester (that i've known since 9th grade) brought like everything she owns over today. I'm gonna miss my old roomie though **tear**. But anyways, Abby (the new roomie) said she was only was bringing her frig and a small box. She shows up with a van loaded of stuff!!! haha!! But other than that.. not much happening.. :) More tomorrow - I'm actually heading off campus.. Christmas shopping for Katie (and I know what I'm getting!!!) Sleep tight!

2002-12-04T22:09:00.000-05:00

So everyone like the little part of the Britney song that I copied and pasted -- RiGhT!! Everyone should know that I'm not the hugest Britney fan - but come on, this song.. kind of hit the spot today especially with the "I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to to believe. I'm just tryin to find the woman in me" lines. its this whole college thing, one minute I like school and the next 10 minutes, i hate it and want to go home. its not the people of the school, its just that i'm more comfortable at home with family and friends. state side is very different from little ol' kinnick high school in japan, thats for sure.
..chat with Kat today about how dumb college is and how the classes that we are forced to take are useless..
anyhow, thats the daily complaint! m o v i n g o n . today, i had two of my four exams. i took the first yesterday so just one more class to go (the fourth exam) before the semester is officially over. isn't that exciting! i leave here tuesday :D <-- big smiley! my mom is already on the internet telling me that she wants to order anthony's pizza wednesday night for dinner after i get home (she doesn't want to get it because she doesn't drive) so can you believe that i'm already being used!!! she keeps me up to date on my little sister - so funny! haha. boys and rice and online shopping. but you know the p o s i t i v e of her shopping online - what doesn't fit her will fit me!! since i'm a size smaller! already getting a new pair of jeans.
StArTiNg tO pAcK foR JaPaN!!! YAY!

2002-12-04T16:01:00.000-05:00

...Britney's on the RADIO...
I'm not a girl
But if u look at me closely
You will see it my eyes
This girl will always find
Her way

I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to believe
I'm just tryin to find the woman in me, yeah
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between

2002-12-02T21:23:00.000-05:00

Long time, no blog. :) Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving. Chicago was a good break from school. Real dinners, turkey.. candy -- all the stuff college is missing. So I went up north to my grandparents. All went really well, my grandparents were really happy to see me :D Saturday night - got the flu and spent the entire night.. doing you know what. not pretty. I was talking to one of my suitemates today.. about how sicknesses always come at the worst times. she just got a cold.. me - getting over the flu. AND GUESS WHAT - exams, not just any exams final exams, start tomorrow. psychology tomorrow at 10 am. blah so i should really get off the internet and get into the books. just 9 days till i'll be home :)

2002-11-27T18:05:00.000-05:00

I just want everyone to see that I broke the trend of writing every other day. :) Nah, actually I just wanted to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving. I'm going up north **in the snow!!** to stay with my grandparents for the weekend. Have I mentioned that already?! Oh well, I'm pretty happy about finally getting away from UCF for the weekend. So I've been telling everyone, ohhh about 438029 times. Yet another slow boring day, watched American Pie with my roommate on her computer. Haha, that movie come make me laugh and get grossed out EVERYTIME i see it. Doing some last minute papers so I don't have to think about them over the weekend.. Not that I won't be thinking about school work, I come back and its finals time. Err, I'm sliding in which b's in all my classes, I really have to get at least one of them up to an a so i don't get grade probation on one of my scholarships. NOT good.
Enough of my complaining! OH! Did I tell you about my soccer game? Let me back up, I was asked to join an intermural soccer team here on campus and we just had our first game this past monday. We kicked butt - with a score of 7 to 2. Should I mention that the other team had to play 2 men down cause some of their players didn't show up?! But still, we WoN and thats all that matters!! Other than that, again.. I wish everyone a happy holiday and safe travels. Talk to you all Sunday!

2002-11-26T22:21:00.000-05:00

This write one day, skip a day, then right again.. is getting to be a trend. Should i keep it.. LOL. So how is everyone. My countdown till I leave for Japan is down to 15 days. I leave a week from today! Awesomeness! I'm getting soo excited but at the same time, I start thinking about all the issues coming up that I don't know how to deal with.. You ever get that? There is sooo much that I haven't mentioned in my blog because I didn't want to bore everyone. Ergh, but do you ever feel like you wanna get it off your chest.. As most of you know, I've been with my boyfriend for over a year, a pretty wonderful year! Problem is.. he's a billion miles away in Japan and I'm in Florida. And it seems like we can never figure out a way to be together. Soo as this christmas comes and goes, and we get to be together.. I start to feel this guilt for leaving him in the first place and now the guilt of having to leave him again. Its a horrible feeling that I wish on no one. But other than that!! I'm excited.. Lots of plans for the month. And lots of people to meet up with!! Ok. Early class in the morning! Last one! Talk to you later!

2002-11-24T23:06:00.000-05:00

Hi all! How was everyone's weekend.. Hopefully more exciting than mine. :) actually, i didn't have all that bad of a weekend. lol. went to the mall on saturday. had to pick up some shoes for my little sister katie cootie bug. thats one of the things i'm sooo excited about, i'm gonna go home and switch clothes with my sister because i'm tired of my own! lol. anyways. rightttt. so i'm pretty bad about keeping up with my blog everyday - is that a bad sign? i only started a week ago! big achievement for me though..
oh my gosh - i know i'm deprived because i lived in japan the last two years but have you guys heard of those oreos with the white chocolate all around them. they are awesome! my roommate keri brought food home today and now i look at her food and almost start drooling. like seriously, my food in the dorm consists of an almost empty container of peanut butter, some japanese sause that my mom sent me, and some cheez it things that have been here since the week i moved in.. pretty sad stuff.
and another thing --- i opened the little frig that we all share (well 4 of us).. one roommate has her own. and omg, the smell that comes out of it.. is enough to kill all the bugs in a 10 mile radius. like seriously. it is soooo bad. of course, i'm the one with no food so i have nothing in there. me and one roommate, liz.. were looking in there the other day.. trying to figure out what smells.. wanna know what we found.. SURE YOU DOOO! some milk with clumps... some left over tuna fish from about 3 weeks ago, some yogurt that has been in there since i moved in... some moldy fruit.. i believe. lol. sooo i guess the smell could be coming from a measure of possibilities.. but still. its horrible!!
ate at subway tonight.. nice change from the marketplace.. studying for a huge exam tomorrow. eck. but guess what - after tomorrow's exam, all i have left is my 4 finals. i got sooo mad at people when they brag about no having to take finals. just 17 more days, give it an hour and it will be 16 days till i go home to japan! ...excitement building...
hope everyone has a wonderful night/day! miss you all! aimee

2002-11-22T22:52:00.000-05:00

Well well well, finally!! my last weekend in Orlando before I'm out of here! i'm sooo excited. just 19 more days till i get home. awesomeness! i leave thursday early morning for chicago to visit my grandparents for the thanksgiving holiday. then i'm back sunday night.. finals start tuesday. eck! i'm nervous about them but at the same time, super excited because that means... going home!! yes yes, i never thought i'd be sooo excited about going home to japan. especially since i hated it soo much when i moved there the summer before 11th grade. you guys remember those days.. so i won't go there. its hard to believe that this is going to be my second to last visit to japan. i did a lot of growing up there and met some really good people. anyways... enough of the sappy stuff. today was another one of those boring days. friday's gooo sooo freakin slow. well. not much to say. more in the morning! night!

2002-11-20T22:22:00.000-05:00

You guys sooo don't understand my counselor lady here. She's horrible. First of all, she has this disability where when she talks to you, she doesn't look at you... She's like looking to the left of you.. I know thats mean to bring up, but come on, i'm trying to talk to this lady about what I want to do with the rest of my college years and then the job that i want to get into for the rest of my life and where is she looking... not at me. You have to admit, that would be a little hard. But back to the story, I called this lady almost 2 weeks ago to ask about a class because we had registration last week. And take a good guess at when she calls me back?! Yes, YOU GUESSED IT.. she calls today, ....only a week after i have already registered.... thats all, not much.. And soo I tell her that I just had a question about my classes. And she asked about my major and I told her that I decided to change it again. See, first.. it was Psychology BA, then Psychology BS, then Social Work, and now its Education. But my major with the school is still officially Psychology BA cause I've been too lazy to go down and change it. Sooo this lady thinks she has the right to tell me to take an Exploration class. For those of you know don't know, its a class required for students who enroll at UCF undeclared. Soo another words, she wants me to pay 200 bucks to take a class that I don't think I need. So i was like, NO i'm not going to do that. And she went on and on and on. Its just soo unbelieveable to me that some students will change their major numerous times over the course of their college life and I decide to change it twice (ok ok, 4 times) during my first semester of college, before majors even count for anything because everyone is taking the general education classes.. Soooo she was quite ANNOYING TODAY.
...Shopping is such a fun thing!!! ..til you get home and realize that you just spent the money that you were supposed to use as food money!!! Oh Well! LOL. Talk to you soon. Miss you all.

2002-11-20T14:52:00.000-05:00

Hi all! Hows everything going. Just took a bio test.. ...painful, very painful...
But heyyyy, its in the high 60's, low 70's today so I'm pretty darn happy!
More later... About to head out shopping!
Aim

2002-11-18T16:02:00.000-05:00

OMG, lots happening in the dorm room. We had a pretty bad case of the fruit flies yesterday = yes those nasty little bugs that just fly around and bother. It was horrible. ..and being poor college students, none of us have bug spray.. we just have the body spray stuff. So we sprayed that awful smelling stuff all over the dorm. The smell was sooo bad that we had to leave, we were coughing and choking. Gosh. hehe. Anyways.. all thanks to *BEEEEP* So that was some pretty nasty stuff. We still have a couple flying around today but hopefully THEY ALL DIE ASAP! ...classes are soo not fun. who invented them and why! Don't you think it would be neat to live in a stupid world for just one day.. ok, maybe not. Oh yeah.. I went to sell back one of my textbooks - a 30 buck one mind you and what do they tell me the value is - A WHOPPING $1.50. I told them I'd check back again, how can you go from 30 to 1.50?! I've never used the book! Come on now! Let me tell you, history has to be one of the most boringest topics ever invented. Sometimes, i think.. I'd rather work as a maid.. or something instead of going there... ok again, MAYBE not. I'm soooo glad the semester is almost over!

2002-11-17T19:52:00.000-05:00

Well 2 blog thingys in one day. Must be improvement... Now if only I would send an e-mail to everyone with the address... Mine just isn't all that cool, LOL. So you guys can teach me if you know anything about this stuff. Soo my day.. Pretty pretty boring! I don't think i did anything. I went to eat twice! ...brunch and dinner... But let me tell you, the food isn't all that great. I looked at this blogish stuff. I dunno why or how i got the idea to start one... but i see potential for neatness in it. If I can stick with it. Soo anyhow, if anyone has any advice on how to fix this blog up, let me know. Night! Sweet tight.

2002-11-17T13:32:00.000-05:00

This is all pretty confusing... I thought it would be a neat way to keep in touch since its been pretty hard lately. Way too much stuff going on. And besides, I can't be the only "coochie" without one, right Lis, Kat and Dez?! This will be short for now, I have pretty up no clue what I'm doing. :) Eck. And besides, I have like 483280 chapters to read in history, not to mention biology. More later. Aim